Once in a while...

Once in a while... life loves you back showering you with its best... once in a while you wake up with a smile and feel alive and tingly. Once in a while you travel with your mind, and let your feelings take you places. Once in a while you just junk your troubles and decide to break free. Once in a while you indulge without guilt and buy yourself something expensive. Once in while you clutch your dreams close and feel them rubbing against your cheek. Once in a while you tell yourself... it's okay... it's okay to be who you are, and that your flaws are pretty too. Once in a while you find friends at the most unlikely places and laugh and cry and make memories that are forever warm. Once in a while you let go of the past, you let it all wash over your feet and find your footing again in the present. Once in a while you're just happy to be you and you take photographs with our eyes, trying to remember all of it... and all this, because you know deep inside that it all happens just once in a while!

Nostalgia

the other day i chanced upon some stranger's album on face book. what i gathered was this girl studies in JU and had taken 5 or 6 of her classmates for a short trip to shantiniketan. they were staying in one of those beautifully creeper adorned quaint looking cottage type houses in prantik. It even had stained glass windows. i knew nothing about this girl but the shots were lovely. some taken at dusk, some taken while they were walking aimlessly, some at the banks of kovai. the shadows, the landscape, the expressions frozen in time and the fun that these guys were having really touched me somewhere deep. it opened up chambers in my mind which have been closed for quite a while. it was an experience going through that album. soon i was lost in my JU days, remembering our trip to Shantiniketan and our dangerous cycle rides. one could never imagine that cycles could be so unsafe...if u have morons at the helm, accidents happen. Sad bit is i don't have a single photograph to share. But the thing is it wasn't half as fun as it could have been. we wasted so much time mostly in handling emotional turmoils and resolving disputes. Getting drunk and smoking like chimneys. We had fun but we didn't have a huge group. I didn't make so many friends. I still dunno why. Today at this juncture i feel a little bit of regret...a little bit of remorse for perhaps not living it up in my college days. and now I'm physically unfit to even live a normal life. Life is over it seems and so many things still left undone. i don't know which way am headed and what the future holds, but the opportunities i have missed are lost forever in time. :)